Rekker wasn't calming down. All the yelling was escalating his emotional rollercoaster. If he didn't care at all his mood might not have tanked so hard but he was intensely attracted to the Swede. It terrified him and pulled up all the ways he constantly questioned his own worth.
"You sound like my family." Rekker snarled the words at the Swede. "Why don't you just keep fucking hitting me until it makes me feel better."
Rekker shoved Bjorn's hand off his leg. He's hurting, afraid, and doesn't want to be touched. The tears are coming hard now, causing his breath to hitch and giving him the shakes. He feels so exhausted he might not stay awake much longer. The emotions are too draining after the blood loss.
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Rekker wasn't calming down. All the yelling was escalating his emotional rollercoaster. If he didn't care at all his mood might not have tanked so hard but he was intensely attracted to the Swede. It terrified him and pulled up all the ways he constantly questioned his own worth.
"You sound like my family." Rekker snarled the words at the Swede. "Why don't you just keep fucking hitting me until it makes me feel better."
Rekker shoved Bjorn's hand off his leg. He's hurting, afraid, and doesn't want to be touched. The tears are coming hard now, causing his breath to hitch and giving him the shakes. He feels so exhausted he might not stay awake much longer. The emotions are too draining after the blood loss.